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28.8.06

IM HUNGRY AGAIN.
hahah. :D
and chinese lessons are a torture.

random thoughts. (:

isn't it ironic that sometimes when people say one thing but yet they do another?
or rather they dont practise what they preach.

sometimes when you want a certain thing to turn out a certain way,
or you had this gut feeling that it would turn out that way.
but it doesnt.
instead, it turns out to be something that you least expect.
or dont even want.

sometimes you want something badly,
to the point of yearning for it.
and it kills,
to feel like this.

perhaps sometimes theres no turning back.
no possible chance that we'd go back to the way we were.
and it just gets out of hand.
hasn't that striked you?

and sometimes you missed that loved one so very much.
but nothing will ever bring him or her back again.
you think back to the good old days.
only taking comfort in the fact that he or she is in a better place.

and sometimes theres so many things that you can't comprehend.
so many things left unsaid.
so many things left in the grey area.
and you desperately want answers.
desperately need them.

well that's life.

LOVE.

Do you really know me at all
Would you take the time
To catch me if I fall
Are you ever gonna be
That real to me
10:05:00 PM

27.8.06

this is horribly long overdued and so to make it up, its extra huge. ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENRICK!

my dear old chinese table mate who claims that im not loyal to him when actually hes the one who betrays me.
tsk tsk.
anyway, kenrick can be quite a sweet kid at times.
he offered us the sinful food in his orange themed birthday basket.
aww. (:
and he is apparently the new age sensitive guy.
oohlala. hoho. (:

had my piano exam last thursday and i screwed it up.
well badly.
i went in with cold and clammy palms to face an examiner who has the same family name as my upcoming ballet examiner?
i did badly at the parts that i shouldnt.
it was just plain horrid.
i stumbled and stopped.
skipping three bars at one shot cause i freaked out and didnt know how to continue.
sheeesh.

came out feeling like a total waste.
went to popular with the intention of buying a highlighter but ended up with many many more things as i desperately needed retail therapy.
hahah. :D

went to crystal jade for dinner with my parents and eating always makes me feel better.
((:

and to top it off, the ss test was on the same day and i wasnt concentrating on it at all.
i kept thinking of the piano and the mental image of my fingers floating over the keys kept popping up in my head.

a big thank you to everyone who tried to at least calm me down and console me.
(:
it helped alot and i really felt better before going into the studio.

yesterday was a SPINELLI AFTERNOON!
decided to forgo the national science challenge and went to spinelli at raffles city and attempted to get some work done with bernice and charmaine.

the coffee was good as usual and it was a blast talking to them and making fun of charmaine.
with all her funny expressions and now we know that charmaine likes YUM CHA.
HAHAH. YAM CHAR.
:DD

headed down to west coast for some church barbecue thing and the whole chicken mascot fiasco started all over again.
AHH.
first it was jotham and shawn.
then at macs it was them and joan.
hahah. (:
i should never have acted that out for the game.
pooey.

oh and i PROMISED vic i'd do this.
victoria goes to victoria school,
plays for the victoria band,
stays at victoria hall,
will go the victoria jc,
carries a victoriAnox bag,
and wears a victoria's secret bra!
:D
some parts dont make any sense but some parts do.
go figure. hahah.

LOVE.

You'll be waiting for another sun,
but that's when things begin to come undone

Running away you can't pretend,
up to the door and back again with me
9:00:00 PM

21.8.06

my mind is in a huge whirl.
everything seems to have hit rock bottom while i'm still fretting over darn old thursday.
theres so many things i cant comprehend,
and plenty of difting thoughts that float around throughout the day.

on a happier note, we had this hilarious convo in class today between me, NIAOming, kenrick and i think poline or charmaine. (:



me flipping through Female, and pointing to a model wearing a rather weird swimsuit:
How's the model going to wear such a bikini? Won't it flop down when she enters the water and expose everything?

kenrick:
No la. Can one. Imagine Niming wearing it.

and everyone explodes into fits of laughter.

Niming:
Aiyah. You know why Kenrick cannot wear? Cause he'll burst the whole bikini.



its convos like this and the people around that keeps me going.
(:
not forgetting the loud announcement
"I'M BLEEDING!" that came from kenrick.
hahaha.
and naturally all of us went
"Where?"
:D

and laughter hasnt lost its therapeutic effect on me.
hoho. (:
after the bikini incident, i continued laughing for quite some time and tripped over NIAOming's bag.
causing me to go even more crazy with laughter and i just sat on the floor,
laughing at myself. hahah.

reply to my tags:

NIAOming: hmm yeah. you officially became a PEEBIRD yesterday. hahah. :D BIRDY.

oddball: NIAOming's a PEEBIRD plus a bimbo plus an apple. hahah. HOW RICH. :D today's assembly! hahah.

bernice: ISSIT? he looks kinda wimpy and weak la. hahah. ((:

poline: HELLO POOP. (: dont you love your new name? hahah. im NOT a bimbo. although its GARY-teed that you are one. ho hum.

LOVE.

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
11:34:00 PM

19.8.06

URGH URGH URGHH.
i feel bad.
i feel horrid.
i feel horrible.

the floorball match yesterday was a disaster.
i was super duper off.
i kept missing the ball.
and the first goal that went in was just BAD.
i cant believe i didnt try to stop that ball from going in.
i did, but i missed.
i felt bad after that and i kept missing.
so i guess its partly my fault that we lost.

we went for the carpenter's tools feeling all sweaty and smelly.
but it was good.
(:
and im quite glad i went.

went to city hall after that by myself and waited for my dad.
i miss going there.
and i miss all the spinelli chill out sessions.
we havent gone there for coffee in a long while!
(hint hint, charmaine and bernice) :D

woke up early this morning to meet up for breakfast at the airport.
EVETOR JUST WENT BACK TO CHINA TODAY.
:/
she came back for a month and my idiotic busy schedule kept me from meeting up with her.
i only could make it today to send her off.

had a nice time chatting with them all over breakfast.
taking those crazy pictures.
AND EVETOR'S BROTHER IS CUTE!
HAHAHA.
:DD
i carried him to take photos and he made his body go soft.
till he was lying and draped on my leg.
hoho. (:

after evetor went in, we hang around by the viewing gallery in hopes of seeing her plane take off.
but we realised we didnt even know which it was.
hahah.
sat there talking.
and when five girls get together, we talk about the most absurd stuff.
from skinny jeans to horizon.
and from people with eating disorders to someone's classmate-uh.
krislyn, loo, charis, diana and i know.
and we shall leave it at that.
its kinda hilarious yet gross.
hahah.
:DD

i really miss all of them.
we always end up in fits of laughter when we talk.
and i really miss those truth days.
when loo sat in front of me and i got to spy and make fun of her.
when charis was the stressed out math rep wanting to shit all day long.
when krislyn was going crazy and being bimbotic.
when diana would burst into tears all of a sudden.
and when EVETOR WAS IN SINGAPORE NOT IN CHINA!
gah.
and theres still the others like lingjing, ada, sandra and the list goes on.

I MISS ALL OF THEM.
TONS, LOADS AND TRUCKLOADS!

today made me realise how much i miss all of them,
and the good old SN days. ((:

URGH.

and im pretty screwed for thursday.
i'll probably turn into a nervous wreck by then.

the date with them cheered up my morning.
and i watched HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL JUST NOW!
:D
well again.
hahah. (:
it was still good though.
that made me happy too.
cause i wasnt in a good and happy mood today.

LOVE.

So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know

This could be the end of everything
So why dont't we go
Somewhere only we know
9:42:00 PM

17.8.06

reply to my tags:

yining: AHH. oh no. and i havent watched it yet! heard its really sweet. (: hahah, you sound like kenrick quoting the lines all day long.

oddball: gah. some loyalty to your tablemate la. im NOT a bimbo you nugget. (: hahah! yes she does. shame on her though. :D

poline: POLINEEEE. when did my name become ZAYNEH? sounds horrible la. like auntie ZAYNE? poop. hahah. uh, like NVR? ((:

char: gee. that was mean. you scandalous girl. i mean SHE-MAN. the one who has two kids already. hahah. im not a looney like you la. and nobody needs to know cause im not even one. totally opposite of you. :DD

bernice is as clumsy as ever and quacking away.
charmaine is scandalous as usual.
rachel grew a lil! (:
ruth is funny and cute as always.
poline is still as noisy. not forgetting the crazy bio notes scare this morning.
kenny is still the lame potato.
NIAOming has turned bimbotic and vain! :D
hsien liang is hilarious. ((:
ben is still shame bird-ing away.
kwan yong is bootylicious to the guys apparently!
kenrick became a green polka dotted dino after chinese lesson on tues.

hahah.
that was all random.
and LAME. (:



i never thought i would say this.
but i'm scared.
i actually am.

it took me almost nine years to get to where i am.
and that couple of minutes next thursday would make or break me.

i never knew how much it meant to me.
all along, it just felt like something i had to do.
not something that i wanted.
but after years of effort.
and all the time put in, it seems like all i ever wanted was that pass.

LOVE.

Hold me in Your arms
Never let me go
I wanna spend eternity with You

And now that You're near
Everything is different, everything's so different Lord.
I know I'm not the same
My life You've changed
I wanna be with You
I wanna be with You
10:05:00 PM

14.8.06

went for planetshakers ultraviolet on saturday.
it wasnt as good as what i had anticipated it to be.
but nevertheless, it was still a good time of praise and worship.
(:
i am NEVER gonna take that darn bus to the airport again.
the driver drived at a speed comparable to a snail!
i ended up being late and had to brisk walk at the airport instead of strolling.

thinking that we could get ramly burgers for dinner,
we queued up first and went in.
and since we were early, there were still lots of spaces around.
wanted to go out but the woman gave some excuse that she wouldnt be able to recognise our faces if we did.
so we ended up starving till the concert neared its end.

it wasnt all that bad.
they started off well and the crowd got hyped up.
but halfway through, it just kinda got lost.

the balloons were annoying us.
the little kids around us kept playing with them and bouncing them off our heads.
we got so frsutrated that we decided to spike or serve the next balloon that threatened to descend upon our heads.
GAH.

after the pastor shared, bernice and charmaine couldnt take it and they very happily dragged me out of the expo.
leaving poor ruth behind.
we didnt want to leave her alone, but she said it was alright.
sorry ruth (:

went to burger king for dinner and had a crap talking session again.
hahah, everytime i go to the aiport i would want to buy a plane ticket and leave the country.
:DD

i thought today would be a horrible day and this week would be a horrid week.
but today turned out fine. (:

had the essay writing during chinese,
pe got cut short cause it started to rain and we got an hour's break!
hahah.
the rest of the lessons went along fine and we watched mean girls on kenrick's ipod video.
that crazy guy, he memorised practically the entire script.
he could mouth word for word without even listening to the voices.
hoho.

i had this strange thought that somehow the video was better than my nano.
and i could watch movies on the bus rides home instead of just listening to music.
but i decided against it when i laughed aloud at a funny scene.
the people on the bus would probably think that im a looney.
:D

oh yeah.
and bernice did another funny bernini again today.
like a reenactment of the milo incident,
poline decided to grope her ass and she turned around wanting revenge or somthing.
hahah, but somehow, she fell backwards and lay on the ground flat like a piece of chee cheong fun. (:
hoho.
and she lay there groaning and moaning about her ass while all of us just broke into uncontrollable laughter.

reply to my tags:

bernice: ya la, we all wanted to kill niming for making us sit through the never ending credits. that crazy tourist lookalike. he looked like he just arrived from hawaii la that day la. :D you can be the bird ball if you want, you kuku magical mop. (: hahah, love.

poline: only one person has logical reasoning huh. hahah. and im sure that person is gary-teed a place in your heart! :D when did my name become ZAYNEH! what the. nah, NIAOming isnt interested in me la. madness.

ben: superman? hahah. superman only rescues wonderwoman. ((: right hsien liang? you know best. hahah.

krislyn: krislyn ng jia qian! i wasnt wearing a skirt you toot head. SHORTS. hahah. but anyway, i dont suffer from that! (:

yining: yes, it rocks! (: but aww i havent watched it yet. have you?

oddball: yeah, me too! oh really? hahah. cause of the remote? :D

LOVE.

In everything I do
I'm holding onto You
Always and forever

And when my world is falling down
In You I will be found
I'm staying in your arms today
Always and forever
9:18:00 PM

12.8.06

i'd reply my tags on the board.
but i would be flooding it today.
so thought i'd do it here. (:

oddball: nah. i wont. hahah, i shall do everything to deprive you of orange juice. yeah! poline is gary-teed a place in my heart. :D and someone's too. hoho. yep. i made it safely. PHEW. (: uh im not a paedophile! youre the one la.

poline: yeah, thats why. but i forgot at that moment when i freaked out. shucks. i should have done that! NIAOming is interested in me? YA RIGHT. hahah. :D poline, you are gary-teed a place in my heart la. dont worry. ((:

char: national day was pure bad luck. pooey. no, hahah. i wasnt. youre not all that influential and EXCLUSIVE (: you know! hahah.

yining: hello yining! :D hahah, yeah. and they do outrageous stuff. ARGH. yep, i'll call security to carry them off to jail. hahah. nice of you to come by. (:

deejee: hey, yeah thanks. (: im alright.

bernice: some sould mate la you. poops. hurhs. i wasnt wearing a skirt! i was wearing shorts. that sickening pervert deserved a slap across his face. hahah. NIAOming can be the new bird. all birds? sounds like the all black. hahah. (:

NIAOming: i shall give him a mighty kick with my foot flexed. hahah. :D aye thanks la. i was wearing shorts. i wasnt exposing anything. AHH. if i go crazy right, you die! hahah. maybe i'll go insane on monday. ((:

vic: ya la. you know what, he deserves to be shamed as a chicken mascot! hahah. without any links to me. :DD playing for the band on monday? (:

pirates was not bad. (:
finally watched it yesterday after a long delay.
that crazy bird NIAOming told us that was an ending at the last part.
thinking it was something good,
we sat till the last of the credits rolled in anticipation for it.
but dang.
it was lame.
all there was, was the doggy biting a bone and sitting on the throne.
hey that rhymes.
hahah. :D

pirates down,
lakehouse, click, the break up and some others to go.
(:

planetshakers tonight!
yay.
am looking forward to it. :DD

LOVE.
11:54:00 AM

11.8.06

(:

i had a good class today.
and i got to the train safely,
without horrid encounters with perverts of any sort.

LOVE.

Take me to that secret place,
Where I can only see Your Face,
And nothing else will ever feel this way.
You take away my guilty stains,
The things I've done that I can't change,
It's only by the Power of Your name.

I stand here in this place,
See the Glory on Your Face,
Taken by the wonder of Your name.
I'm desperate for Your touch,
Never needed it so much,
Cause all I want is You.

When all the things around me have fallen to the ground
I'm always thankful for the love in You I've found
.
11:44:00 PM

10.8.06

i nearly died of fright yesterday.

went for ballet and stoned at starbucks for an hour before going back to hear the pianist play the dance for me.

walked to the train station as usual when suddenly at the traffic junction,
this guy jumped out and boo-ed at me.
thought it was someone i knew at first,
but when i looked closely,
i didnt even know him at all.

i decided to ignore him but i knew that he kept looking at me from the corner of my eye.
thought he was mentally unstable as he waved to some caucasian guy crossing the road.

i prayed super hard that he would not go into the train station.
but horribly, and unluckily,
he went down too.

he took the stairs and i was quite relieved.
but at the second escalator,
he pretended to hover at the stairs,
as if going down.

but when i went onto the escalator,
he jumped on and stood on the same step as me.
as freaked out as i was,
i ignored him and fiddled with my ipod.

he tried to talk to me but i continued to ignore him.
he said a bunch of disgusting stuff to me that i could hear over my ipod.

and it went like this
"xiao jie, ni de da tui hen xing gan. ni wei shen me chuan dao ne me bao lu?"
i swore i wanted to slap him.

since there was no response,
he walked to the other exit.
and i thought i was safe.
thinking that he came down just for fun.

BUT.
that idiot, that freaking pervert waited on the other side for me.
and i had hid behind one of the walls,
stalling for time and pretending to be waiting for someone.
i thought if there was lag time,
he would have thought that i went down already.
and give up cause he cant find me.

i was tempted to go up to the patrolling officers and make them carry him off to the police station.
suddenly those huge burly guys gave me a sense of security.
(:

i came out from behind the pillar and i saw him waiting.
and i was like SHIT.
and i dashed into the train station.

i was super uber freaked out by then,
and wove between all the people,
to get to a corner that he couldnt find me.

i thought i was safe again,
and prayed hard that the train would come.
but that sickening pervert saw me.
then he went and hide too.

when the train came,
i quickly rushed in.
but he came and followed me.
i was dodging him when he reached out and tried to touch my legs.
luckily i was fast and his hands barely brushed against me.

i stood behind this family and a couple.
and he dashed out of the train.
showing a sign that somewhat seemed like a victory sign.
like he had accomplished something great.
what the hell.
i should have kicked him in the groin.
i've always thought that i would when i meet such perverts,
but at that moment, i was just freaked out.

he stood at the train window and kept waving and grinning.
being irritated and disgusted with him.
i ignored him and went phew.
when the doors closed and the train moved off.
i was so afraid that he would dash in just before the train moved off.

when i reached orchard,
i kept looking around like a fugitive as i was afraid that he had continued stalking me.

i think these guys,
and he was young.
like in his teens only.
should get it big time.

they dont have a right to go around stalking people,
saying gross stuff to them,
and worst of all trying to touch them!

i'll kick this guy if i ever meet him again.
period.
no more chances.
i didnt do anything to him cause i thought he was mentally unstable.
but seems like he went further then just trying to attract attention.
ARGHHH.

what a national day i had.
oh gosh.
i was like traumatised la.

im gonna get ready my grand battements and what not to kick him if he dares to stalk me again.
((:
11:10:00 AM

the very nice song with the nice lyrics (:

Macy Gray - I Try

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that faith
Has brought us here
And we should be together, babe
But we're not

I play it off but I'm dreaming of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm feigning

[chorus]
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
I may seem alright and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front, just a front

I play it off but I'm dreaming of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm feigning

[chorus]
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy, I need your touch
Your love, kisses and such
With all my might, I try
But this I can't deny, deny

I play it off but I'm dreaming of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm feigning

[chorus]
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

update tomorrow.
i had a freakish day today.
:/

LOVE.
12:01:00 AM

8.8.06

the very slack school day became a rather boring day for me.
contrary to all the past half days,
i had absolutely NOTHING TO DO.

the national day celebration was a total blah.
hung around in the class before going off to parkway for lunch.
which in turn turned out to be a very quick one.
cause the guys wanted to go dota.

and rachel went home,
ruth went to have ice cream with her japan trip mates.
i was left with bernice, char and poline.
that three crazy nuts.
wanted to go have ice cream,
but that three kukus psycho-ed me into going back to school.

had a nice chatting session and played abit of volley in class till it was time for training.

i needed to conserve energy for the two hours plus ballet class and so i went off to town ALONE.
and thanks.
i got called a loner twice.
GAH.

sat at plaza sing's starbucks for close to three hours.
my mocha frap was good.
i did abit of work.
BUT i was freezing my butt off till i was shivering.

stoning is never a fun thing,
much less when youre alone.
i got so bored and my phone and ipod's battery life went dangerously low.
its interesting to see all the people who come and go.
and observe them. (:
PEOPLE WATCHING. ((:

ballet was okay.
had quite a good class but i had an accident with my toe.
OWW.
while going on pointe,
i accidentally jumped or hopped or whatever and my poor toe nearly died.
somemore i cut the nails so that it wont split,
and now its like uber short.
so the pain's there.
AHHHH.

ballet early tomorrow morning.
and in the afternoon.
date with krislyn, eve, charis, loo and nai?
:DD

LOVE.
11:38:00 PM

7.8.06

haven been posting regularly.
(:
and this is overdued, but

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNY!
my happy trapezium mate.
youre a year older.
some old potato huh. :D
one more year to all the nc 16 movies.

homesick was on saturday and cabaret was on last saturday.
both were not bad.
(:
homesick had lots of dialogue that was rather entertaining at times,
and cabaret was more of the visuals.
the costumes and the songs.
:DD
and emma yong sure can sing.
hahah.

went out before homesick and town-ed.
but i didnt get anything.
i missed my freb perry bag by a day!
ARGH.
but i bought my adidas bag anyway.
so it wasnt all that bad.

pastamania for dinner and kenny's sort of birthday dinner.
(:
ate cheese cake for dessert.
hahah.
to satisfy my craving.

bought him a shirt.
and nice black shirt from topman.
see kenny, how nice we are to you.
:DDDDD

church-ed yesterday.
and the call to worship was hilarious.
there was a typo and from the word beast,
it became breasts.
hahah.
:D

missed bible study as i had to go for the later ballet class.
seems like this week is another dance filled week.
classes on sunday, tuesday, wednesday and friday.
and when everyone is in bed on national day at 9am,
i'll be up at fort canning.
yayness.

tomorrow's a short day.
and i'll get to slack around before going for ballet. (:

though today was a killer day.
i almost died.
the sun fried my brain during pe,
and we had math and LA after that.
monday's a lousy day cause we only get a break.
as a result,
we had to dash down to the canteen to grab a bite before going for the physics test.
and even so, we were late.
the test had already started and we had to rush our way through.

bio lecture was next.
at a certain point of time in the lecture,
i was practically not there anymore.
i was so tired that i switched off.
whoops. :D

its been exactly a month.
a month is a long time.
yet there's still something thats holding me back from moving on.
i yearn to see him once more.

while leaving my grandma's place,
i said goodbye to them all and almost said goodbye to him.
its been a part of me for such a long time.
that the change is hard to accept.

the house seems empty.
and it feels empty too.
all the memories return
whenever i look at his old room.

i think of him at the oddest hours.
while studying for physics last night,
i suddenly stoned and felt like crying all over again.
i thought i had cried it all out on the last day.

and it seemed as if i had run out of tears to cry.

i pray dear Lord,
that you'll help me to move on.
for i know that hes in a better place now.
with you.

LOVE. after a horribly long post. (:

Tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
7:18:00 PM

2.8.06

its high time that i updated. (:
school's taking the life out of me.
since theres so much stuff to do and so many things to study for,
im getting less and less sleep each day.
:/

i keep knocking out on thursdays cause im super exhausted.
maybe one day i shall check myself into the hospital for exhaustion and i can just sleep away happily. (:

my crazy schedule keeps me busy, busy.
monday piano lessons,
tuesday double classes of ballet and volley,
wednesday rest day,
thursday volley,
friday ballet,
saturdays that are filled to the brim with activities
and sundays when i have ballet and church.

URGH.
someone save me.

i feel horrid.
not a good week to start with.
had the monday blues.
and it lapsed over into a little of tuesday.

i cant seem to get over that.
when it seems like im fine already,
something will happen that will remind me of it all over again.
the same images will flash,
and the same feelings of yearning will resurface.

so what if im not okay?

today was a little better. (:
though math was just- darn it.
decided to try and psycho myself into liking math.
like how my ballet teacher always goes 'i love ballet, i love ballet.', when the class is about to drop dead.
I LIKE MATH.
I LOVE MATH.
wow.
hahah. :D

oh yes.
and civics today was hilarious. ((:
ms ong talked about relationships and we were asked to name qualities that we look for in a boy/girl friend.

hahah.
for the guys, it was just some mass gl session.
and the girls,
the best thing said was that
"HE MUST LOVE ME MORE THAN I LOVE HIM"
oh yay.
that was a good one.
and its quite true though.
cause you cant be the one who keeps clinging to the other person.
hooray for haoran who said that.
:DD

a post with nothing much today.
just to get stuff off my chest.
and make my blog seem alive.
hahah. (:

NINIS update coming soon. :D

LOVE.

I'm gettin off my stage
The curtains pull away
No hyperboles to hide behind
My naked soul exposes
11:08:00 PM

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